All I have to say about this is…

Once more, starting this entry, I find that, I am unsure as to how to start.
Likely cause I’m unsure as to what the subject or content values will be in this entry…


I’m sorry.


Okay that’ll work.


This is now going to be a kind of letter of apology now that I think about it for a moment, and that’s fine.

L, I’m sorry for all that mess.

I’m not going to dig too deep into what I’m apologizing for, mostly because I’ve already done that in person over the phone, and we’ve hopefully move past that whole mess, I know I’d like to, and am trying to get away from the mindset that put us there, and honestly it’s hard, very hard sometimes, but I’m making the effort, I’m pushing onward, and doing my best to grow up some more, in the areas that you need, that I need, to grow up in, I need to grow more in certain ways, and the fact that I’m aware of it, and am trying, is in and of it’s self, a step forward that anyone can hopefully understand and appreciate.


But I feel that I must say, here at least, that I was wrong, and that while you are not wholly to blame, you did have your part in everything, because that’s what a relationship such as ours is; two equal parts of a whole, and I will in fact, do the right thing, man up, and say that I was the one who did the most, and hold the most responsibility in the last major conflict we had.

And for that, I am, wholly and deeply sorry, more than you will ever know, I am all but broken over what happened, and all I can truly do is what you have asked of me, all I can do, is try harder, do better, and just love you with all I am, and in all honesty, its all I’ve ever really been able to do.


So I will keep doing it, and doing it, until I breathe my last.


And no matter what happens, I will endure, if not only for your sake, then for my own.

Love peace n chicken grease,
~Caleb