how does one deal with this kind of thing?

so, long story short, I and my Girl Friend in New York, are officially done and over.

thankfully it wasn't a blow up, but we had reached a stage in our relationship where with the growth we both needed, we either needed to be closer, or further apart, and since we could not reconcile everything and see eye to eye on all matters, we agreed that we would still be friends, and then maybe try again at a later time.

its all good right?

Well... not at this point, I'm in misery, she seems to have transitioned seamlessly, and now, I've gotten word that she's in the hospital, sick, for some unknown reason, and the doctors think it might be her liver, and her father died from liver cancer just this last July...

I'm about one bad turn from going stark raving mad.

No joke.

if I never post anything here again, its because Im in an asylum or dead



[EDIT]

Well, it wasn't all THAT bad, but... it wasn't good either...

Apparently, she's acquired an eating disorder, the doctors ran a ton of tests, and realized that she was malnourished, which after talking to her, they diagnosed her with "possible anorexia and/or bulimia" so they pumped some stuff into her, gave her crackers and water, then sent her home with instructions to eat small meals every few hours, and sleep as much as she can for the rest of the week...


there is WAY too much going on at the moment with her, and with me, and even yes, with us, for me to even begin to write about it, here or any where really, but I will be commenting on it, as I can, and compiling it...

In the mean time...


I fucking hate life right now, because it sucks like a whore due to how unfair and hard it is, for no REAL apparent reason...


BUT!

The sun is till shining somewhere, and I'm still breathing...

I will endure.

~Caleb