Why invisibility should NOT be a superpower…

I have an interesting way to start THIS rant…

This following bit is taken from an IM chat from not too long ago, names have been changed to protect people, and all that jazz, content has not been changed, but corrections have been inserted and noted.

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From Windows Live Messenger:
Athena says (2:27 AM):
e_e

Sgt. Pepper says (2:27 AM):
yes, I am always trying to be 10 steps ahead of everyone

Athena says (2:27 AM):
It only works if they're not aware of what you're trying to do.

Sgt. Pepper says (2:28 AM):
I never am, but then I am normally about 4 ahead of everyone
no, sometimes it works even when they are aware
but then Im thinking about 50 steps ahead then
xD
anywhoz
posting

Athena says (2:28 AM):
You're preaching to the choir here.

Sgt. Pepper says (2:28 AM):
xD
hahahahaaha
WHERES YOUR GONWE???

Athena says (2:29 AM):
My whowhat?

Sgt. Pepper says (2:29 AM):
gown
the thing you wear when your in a choir
xD

Athena says (2:29 AM):
Hilarious. Go. Post.

Sgt. Pepper says (2:29 AM):
I spelled it the way a choir leader I knew pronounced it xD
xD

Athena says (2:29 AM):
Hahahaha

Sgt. Pepper says (2:30 AM):
oh my
now Im talking like Shrek xD

Athena says (2:30 AM):
Focus. xD

Sgt. Pepper says (2:30 AM):
hahahahahahaha
too late
xD

Sgt. Pepper says (2:40 AM):
posted

Athena says (2:40 AM):
Mk.

Athena says (2:54 AM):
...my roommate is talking in her sleep again.
I have no idea what she's saying.

Sgt. Pepper says (2:54 AM):
xD

Sgt. Pepper says (2:55 AM):
herrmmm

Sgt. Pepper says (2:56 AM):
trolls be trollen

Athena says (2:56 AM):
Ehh?

Sgt. Pepper says (2:56 AM):
my blogg

Athena says (2:56 AM):
You have trolls on your blog?

Sgt. Pepper says (2:56 AM):
someone posted a comment on it last night
life trolls
that have found me online it seems...
gawddammit

Athena says (2:57 AM):
How does that even happen? xD

Sgt. Pepper says (2:57 AM):
hey, you had a wake up on Fb just a little bit ago
networking’s a cool thing
a pain in my ass sometimes
but its a neat little thing

Athena says (2:58 AM):
Huh? A wake-up?

Sgt. Pepper says (2:58 AM):
the cell number deal on Facebook?

Athena says (2:58 AM):
Oh yeah, that.
Well, now there's no one on my friend's list that doesn't already have my phone number, so... xD

Sgt. Pepper says (2:59 AM):
lol
well
lets just say that if my guess is right
and my logic is pretty sound so Im going to assume it is
a former friend found me on FB
and then by proxy
my blog
and commented

Sgt. Pepper says (3:00 AM):
in defense of she who shall not be named

Athena says (3:00 AM):
There's a reason I haven't revealed the existence of my new blog to the whole facebook community. Yet.

Sgt. Pepper says (3:00 AM):
hmm

Sgt. Pepper says (3:00 AM):
personally I dont give a flying rat fuck either way

Sgt. Pepper says (3:01 AM):
I just think that if one is going to comment and "confront" someone about something

Athena says (3:01 AM):
See, that's another one of those peculiar expressions I will never hear again in my life. xD

Sgt. Pepper says (3:01 AM):
have the goddammed balls to do it face to face or in some personal way, and not by b eing snyde (snide*-ed) via the internet

Athena says (3:01 AM):
They take comfort in anonymity.

Sgt. Pepper says (3:02 AM):
thats one from my mom if you can believe it

Athena says (3:02 AM):
lol wow.

Sgt. Pepper says (3:02 AM):
yeah, since the commenter and my self used to be pretty good friends at one point, I could understand why
given if I apply a whole slew of character flaws to the equation

Sgt. Pepper says (3:03 AM):
which, given recent history, also makes perfect sense
I personally feel that at this point,
the one major issue with humanity as a whole
is that there are too many humans in it

Athena says (3:03 AM):
I think that anonymity is generally a cop-out.

Sgt. Pepper says (3:03 AM):
yes, I do realize how that sounds

Sgt. Pepper says (3:04 AM):
ya think?
its insurance against being wrong

Athena says (3:04 AM):
It's a way to have opinions without consequences, which is ridiculous.

Sgt. Pepper says (3:04 AM):
there are ALWAYS consequences
peoird (*Period-ED)

Athena says (3:04 AM):
Unless no one can figure out it was you.

Sgt. Pepper says (3:05 AM):
*period
pish
I wasnt born yesterday
anyone who treats me as such, is a bigger fool than they take me for

Athena says (3:05 AM):
I think it's generally a good idea to take responsibility for one's ideas.

Sgt. Pepper says (3:05 AM):
Id say thats true

Athena says (3:05 AM):
If they feel the urge to throw it out there, they should at least have the guts to claim it.

Sgt. Pepper says (3:06 AM):
Id also take it one step further and say, that if one cannot own up to one's ideas, or stances on something, then they have no right to express them to start with

Athena says (3:06 AM):
Exactly.

Sgt. Pepper says (3:06 AM):
amen to that

Athena says (3:06 AM):
And I don't think that internet aliases the way we do it counts.

Sgt. Pepper says (3:06 AM):
lol, heaven help anyone who corsses (*crosses-ED) us on a subjest (*Subjects-ED) we're agreed upon

Athena says (3:07 AM):
That's mainly so that creepers don't find me. xD

Sgt. Pepper says (3:07 AM):
xD
well see
there is the perfect example of a fine line
there is a distinct fine, and very thin fragile line between protecting oneself

Sgt. Pepper says (3:08 AM):
and out right hiding
if you had an idea
and claimed it
and used the name you put it out there with

Athena says (3:08 AM):
Well, for me, I draw the distinction because I don't treat people without respect under the guise of an alias.
Also, I claim my own ideas.

Sgt. Pepper says (3:08 AM):
then you claim it, as that aspect of your person, and have taken responsibility (*responsibility-ED) for it
indeed

Sgt. Pepper says (3:09 AM):
same point, differing views
same conclusion
I GOTTA use this for a future post in my blog
xD

Athena says (3:09 AM):
Hahahaha

Sgt. Pepper says (3:09 AM):
I'll edit your name, dont worry
lol

Athena says (3:10 AM):
lol thanks


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As you can see, I do in fact pay attention, and I do also in fact believe in responsibility, in all forms, and I will also say that when there is any kind of conflict, one MUST know where one stands in the matter and why, and to hide behind the shield of invisibility as a nameless or faceless voice of whatever on the internet, or over any other form of contact and communication, and I personally prefer that people be honest and speak plainly.


Which is to say, if you are not in direct contact with the primary entities of a conflict, DO NOT JUMP INTO THE FUCKING MIDDLE OF THE EXCHANGE YOU GODDAMMED IDIOT!

Yes, I’m yelling, at YOU, reading this now, but rest assured that I am also yelling this at myself, because I jumped into the middle of an exchange once, not to very long ago, and it was what touched off the dirty bitch slap of a poor troubled and fucked up young woman, who had at once point, been my best friend.

I told that “lady” to fuck herself on this very blog a few days ago.
I have not, nor will I anytime soon, change my stance.

As you can surmise, I prefer to face my conflicts and the people that are at the center of them, head on, and if I must take on a bunch of fringe issues and people to do it, then let me dispel ALL misconceptions; I will fucking take on you AND your silly army of supporters, one on one, so the line forms to your right if you’re a friend, and to your left if you’re here to fight, pillows for your knees can be found next to you, so grab one, pucker up, and suck it shit-heads, I got plenty of junk dangling between my ears and my legs to fuck you up, any way, any time, any place, and any fucking reason.


Balls. I have them. And I use them for more than making my voice a nice baritone.
~Caleb

All I have to say about this is…

Once more, starting this entry, I find that, I am unsure as to how to start.
Likely cause I’m unsure as to what the subject or content values will be in this entry…


I’m sorry.


Okay that’ll work.


This is now going to be a kind of letter of apology now that I think about it for a moment, and that’s fine.

L, I’m sorry for all that mess.

I’m not going to dig too deep into what I’m apologizing for, mostly because I’ve already done that in person over the phone, and we’ve hopefully move past that whole mess, I know I’d like to, and am trying to get away from the mindset that put us there, and honestly it’s hard, very hard sometimes, but I’m making the effort, I’m pushing onward, and doing my best to grow up some more, in the areas that you need, that I need, to grow up in, I need to grow more in certain ways, and the fact that I’m aware of it, and am trying, is in and of it’s self, a step forward that anyone can hopefully understand and appreciate.


But I feel that I must say, here at least, that I was wrong, and that while you are not wholly to blame, you did have your part in everything, because that’s what a relationship such as ours is; two equal parts of a whole, and I will in fact, do the right thing, man up, and say that I was the one who did the most, and hold the most responsibility in the last major conflict we had.

And for that, I am, wholly and deeply sorry, more than you will ever know, I am all but broken over what happened, and all I can truly do is what you have asked of me, all I can do, is try harder, do better, and just love you with all I am, and in all honesty, its all I’ve ever really been able to do.


So I will keep doing it, and doing it, until I breathe my last.


And no matter what happens, I will endure, if not only for your sake, then for my own.

Love peace n chicken grease,
~Caleb

“Break” the present tense of “Broken” the pretext to "Break up"

For someone who struggles with starting his therapeutic rants, I find that this one is in fact rather EASY to start.

What is the meaning of life?

Well, the core of our very existence, pretty much on any and every level as human beings, is relationships.

The core of ANY relationship is communication.

The basis for communication is contact.

The reason for contact, is intrest.

The root of interest is attraction.

And the reason for attraction, is to initiate…

Drum roll PLEASE!

~Explosive drum roll!~

RELATIONSHIPS!


Holy fucking shit-faced cock twisted bitch slapping Mother Teresa on a godammed saltine cracker…

With Cheddar Cheese dipping sauce I might add.



Ask any over paid, under educated, cheap suit or sweater wearing sociologist, psychologist, behaviorist, therapist, or any other number of ist’s gist’s and the rest of the liberal arts graduates who specialize in the fucked up study of human nature, and behavior, and one of the very first things they will tell you, is that any healthy relationship is built upon two key factors; Communication and Trust.

They will also tell you, that ultimately, for any MEANINGFUL relations between persons, you cannot have one without the other.


Digging into this just a bit, because I really don’t want to go totally in-depth, we can surmise that every form of communication that we as humans use, is important, even more so in our flashy sci-fi dream driven world of e-mail, text messages and web-cams.

Gone are the days of long sought after letters from a loved one or friend from far over the horizon, now we can write to one another just about anywhere, a message as long or short as we so chouse, with links to news, pictures and videos, or even the content itself IN the message.

We can now talk to a person, voice to ear, dammed near anyplace on earth, at pretty much any time we so wish it to be, press a few buttons and ka-bam-o, you’re talking, your texting, your e-mailing, you’re video chatting, all at the speed of electricity and energy waves.


Fast forward someone from 20 years ago, and show them all this amazing shit, and they’d SWEAR it was either A) a utopian society ripped from the annals of Sci-Fi-dom, or B) fucking magic.

Yeah they had Cell phones in the 80’s but they where little more than slimmed down crappy walkie-talkie’s that could phone home on occasion, but nothing on the order of what we now take for granted now and days.


And its not just the simple act of talking that’s gone uber-tech on crack.

Oh yeah. Here it comes, cover the eyes and ears of the little ones.

Sex.


You can have an affare with a person 2000 miles away, and in some places, get away with it, because there’s still the issue of distance and physicality and such.


If you want to nit-pick that, fine, but the simple fact is, an orgasm is an orgasm, and an orgasm along in masturbation, fine and dandy, normal and healthy blah blah, bullshit n noise, you’ve heard all of that, but then an orgasm shared and or caused and or in anyway shared with another human, is, in most basic terms, sex.

Intercourse, oral, anal, digit, dry hump, or web cam, if you and someone else are aroused, ascend, plateau, climax, and then refrain, (or any of those really) together in ANY fashion, then congrats, you’ve just had sexual relations, that is, your relationship was under the influence, guise, context and or otherwise the overall purview of sex.




Having said all of that, it should be clear where I’m about to go.


When there is a break in communication, a ripple, a stoppage, a lessening or disruption of any kind, then all kinds of things can happen.

The most common is the classic “huh?” moment, which we all have, all the time, every day, no big deal.


Next is the “say what?” or “what was that?” about the same as above, a tad more impactful, because it tends to lead to some overlap in the exchange, which will lead to some confusion, but is of course, no massive big deal, and it tends to get worked out pretty quickly and without fuss.


The above examples are of course, everyday things that are not on purpose, they just happen, it’s a part of life.


However, other ripples, hic-ups and other such break downs in communication, can range from technology not quite working as it should, (which is far more common than you might think) to intentional breaks on the flow or exchange of thoughts, ideas, and meanings.

It is the intentional stoppages, that will harm a relationship, if there is no reason or rhyme to it given, and in its essence a form of abuse, however THAT is in the extreme cases where someone is TRYING to hurt another, by cutting them off.



We as humans are gifted with speech, and creative output, art, music, and yes, technology, the ways, and manner, and speed with which we can exchange ideas, thoughts, and information is simply staggering.

We must endeavor to use them all, to the best of our ability.


We must also not forget that sometimes, many times, shit happens.