It just occurred to me…

Well, its been one week since my birthday, and while that in and of itself isn’t such a big deal or thought, as soon as I realized that, a whole string of little thoughts tangled up into a massive thought, in that, when I turned 25 on my birthday, I really didn’t feel any older or wiser or anything.

In some ways, I felt younger, but now that its been a week I realize now that I am in fact older and wiser, Ive got some new scars, some new stories, some new insights, and I feel as if suddenly… I’m about to be reborn somehow.

Everything is both old, and new, I can see the wonder in the universe, as well as the pain, the gears, as well as the magic, I can see God in everything, and I can see man in all around me, and I realize, I know a lot more than I give myself credit for, and that for everything I do know, there’s a million I don’t.

It just kinda struck me right down to the center of my being there for a moment, and, I liked it…

You want consistency? Go to Mac Donalds.

~Caleb

"A to Z" or "26 times some unknown number = pointless but factual" (insomnia)

A- Available: ehhh...

- Age: 25

- Annoyance: Politics, people and sick old perverts

- Animals: are yummy?

B- Beer: Shiner Bock, Coors/Coors Light, Dos Equis (XX) and Guinness

- Birthday: November

- Best Friends: They are what they are... Everything...

- Body Part on opposite sex: the whole body? Fine... Eyes are a big deal, but its all in the smile!

- Best feeling in the world: her kiss...

- Best weather: Texas weather, its bi-polar, but then thats how I like it

- Been in Love: yeah

- Been on stage?: indeed, and Im good on it

- Believe in Magic: Please define "magic"?

- Believe in God: Yup

- Believe in Santa: ehh

C- Candy: Reese's

- Color: mostly blues or shades of gray

- Chocolate/Vanilla: both ;p

- Chinese/Mexican: see above ^_^

- Cake or pie: hmmm... Pie filled with cake... xD

- Continent/Country to visit: name one?

- Cheese: hmm... Pepper jack!

D- Day or Night: either or

- Dance in the rain?: only with her...

E- Eggs: scrambled plz

- Eyes: uhh... "Hazel" (shades of blue/gray/green)

- Ever failed a class?: Unfortunately...

F- Full name: Caleb Keeton McConnell

- Food: yummy?

G- Greatest Fear: ... that's classified

- Goals: Get into the Music industry, make some money, become a writer, publish a novel, find my heart, and love again

- Gum: ehh... Wrigley's spearmint when Im in the mood

- Get along with your parents?: ehhh... we've not threatened to kill each other in some time

- Good luck charm: my balls. yes, you read that right, deal.

H- Hair Color: shades of brown, laced with silver

- Height: 6'8"

- Happy: ... fuck you.

- Holiday: 4th of July

- How do you want to die: Doesn't matter, no one gets to choose, but if I did it would be doing something either really brave and heroic, or really boring but stupid. knowing my luck, it might end up being both, or in my sleep.

I- Ice Cream: Cookies n' cream ^_^

- Instruments: Guitar, Bass, Drums, and sometimes other people... what?

J- Jewelry: watch?

- Job: is crap

K- Kids: like em' none of my own, and Im not sure if I ever will at this point

- Kickboxing or karate: either or

- Keep a journal?: yup, a few versions of it in fact *ebil grin*

L- Longest Car Ride: Texas to Wyoming and back

- Love: ... hurts like a bitch... But is likely worth it in the end...

- Letter: as in fave? pifft, what a stupid question

- Laughed so hard you cried: a few times

M- Milk flavor: chocolate

- Movies: My favorites vary all the time

- Motion sickness?: not that Im aware of

- McD’s or BK: either

N- Number of Siblings: Three.

- Number of Piercings: None.

- Number(s): ehh?

O- One wish: ... no, I have 3, but if you cant grant me even just one, then stop wasting my time.

P- Perfect Pizza: chicken mushrooms peperoni and jalapenos ^_^

- Pepsi/Coke: both

Q- Quail: area bitch to hunt

R- Reason to cry: pick something, I'll make it a reason for you

- Reality T.V: is bullshit

- Radio Station: ehh, whichever

- Roll your tongue in a circle?: nope

S- Song: too many to name here

- Shoe size: 16

- Salad dressing: Greek

- Sushi: I refuse to eat something I would go fishing with to catch a proper fish and COOK it before I ate it.

- Slept outside: yeah

- Skinny dipped?: ... a few times

- Sleep with socks?: always

- Sing well?: well enough

- Swear? when I feel its needed to fully express how I feel

- Strawberries/Blueberries: either, although Im not a huge berry fan anyways

T- Time for bed: anytime between 2am and 5am

- Thunderstorms: are the next best thing to... pick something, and they are the next best thing to that.

U- Unpredictable: Predictably so xD

V- Vacation spot: anywhere thats not here

W- Weakness: my heart

- Which one of your friends acts the most like you: ehh, theres a few that act/speak/think in likened manner xD

- Who makes you laugh the most: myself

- Worst feeling: Helplessness, or unfulfilled longing...

- Wanted to be a model?: a model what?

- Where do we go when we die?: Heaven or hell, but life is indeed purgatory...

- Worst Weather?: Idk

X- X-Rays: a good 6-7 not counting dental

- Ex's: Suck. like/are. whores.

Y- Year it is now: 2010.

Z- Zoo animal: Raptors

LAST PERSON WHO…1. Slept in a bed beside you?: her...

2. You went to the mall with?: uhhh... huh... I dont remember

3. You went to dinner with?: the fam

4. You talked to on the phone?: Dani

5. Made you laugh?: Dani

6. Hugged you?: ... my grandmother (had to think about that one)

7. Said they loved you?: ... her...

8. Held your hand?: her...

9. Spoke with: Kristen

10. You cried over?: that's classified

11. Last person you texted?: Twitter



A question for a later answer

Which is the greater personal evil?

Letting go of someone knowing it could very well be the death of them (in any/every sense/application of the word)

Or holding onto them, knowing that it could end up going the same way, oh and either way, it would destroy you too?



Consider the impact one has on others, think of the ways in which we are connected, and no I do not mean just by way of social networks, and technology but in the realm of person, as in personality, and personally, and consider how we effect not just ourselves with our actions, and choices, but they who are most connected to us...


more on this next time.


Short post, blah blah, deal with it.
~Caleb