Fifteen days and (but who’s) counting

This time last year, I was working a crap job, in love with a girl over a thousand miles away, and trying to figure out how to fandangle my self a way to visit her, while trying to pay out a few tickets and car repairs, and baking my brain in the over 100 degree Texas heat.

Right at the end of July and start of August, I was in New York on a totally last freaking second “vacation” with Alexis, and having arguably the best weekend of my life, broke like a bad joke and not caring for anything, none the lease the total abject horrific fallout I had left back home thanks to my just up and leaving without warning or explanation.

And this year?

Same ol’ shit, new frackin’ day, but with three key differences that I rather like honestly; number one: I got my shit wired up right this time, I have tickets and hotel reservations in the bag, bought n paid for, in advance, so no last minuet deal that bankrupts me for the next three months, and no bumming rides and food from my girlfriend and family. Number the second: no fallout this time, I’ve been totally upfront with the family and given them PLENTY of warning, and while I DID have to pay off some tickets and get some car repairs done that’s all pretty much over and done with now, and while I am currently broke, I will be fine since I get paid two days before I blow this melting popsicle stand called the D/FW area for Ohio, where its 20 degrees lower on average, which means I should be thoroughly enjoying summer rather than trying not to melt.

Which brings me to point the third: new GF, better GF, and if I have MY way, the last GF I will ever have. Kristen is SUCH a step up, far and away top shelf when compared to my past 7 exes (oh lord, why do I suddenly fee like some strange Scott Pilgrim anagram of sorts?) and the thing is, its not just any one thing, sure she’s not some frilly froo-froo girly girl, or some EMO skater chick or a preppy daddies princess, and that’s really part of it; she’s just herself, nerdy, tom-boyish, country like, artistic, musical, creative, goofy, snarky, simple, straightforward, hyper cool in her own way, complexly female, yet simply herself, quiet, and thoughtful, caring and pointed, she is all of that, and OH so MUCH more, and THAT is why it’s like golden apples versus rotten brass lemons comparing her to any other girl I’ve even half-way liked, much less dated.

I love her, and I realize now how blessed and lucky I am to be friends with her, much less to be in love with her and dating… After all the hell and torment I’ve been through, being with Kristen is just like… It’s like a week long birthday party, and…

There is just absolutely zero pretenses with her, its just natural, easy, we understand each other so well it’s sometimes a shade scary, but always entertaining, and comforting, for the first time I find myself feeling free enough to just be me, without worrying if I’ll insult or scare her off just cause I can be a bit crazy sometimes…

Most times…

Oh shut up, you know you love me internet, who else could you find to balance total insanity with flawless unbending logic, and wrap it up in a wonderfully blended blanket of sarcasm and directness?

Uhh-huh, I thought as much.

Whatever, I’ll say something else at a later date, atm, I need to jet off to work, I gotta get paid after all right?

In the meantime, as I always like to say:

Deuces n rock, catch ya on the flip flop children, I shall endure, if only for the grace of God, or my own stubbornness…

~Caleb