There are not enough words, in all the tongues of the universe, to express how I feel, how I am, after having met you…
The holes in my heart have plagued me so, filled with determent, and falsehood, chasing the wind and finding the rain.
The pain I feel now is a sweet numb thumping in my chest, as I miss the feel of you on me, your skin on mine, your fingers filling the gaps between my own, your fingers lightly, gently tracing the contours of my arm, feeling the texture of the hair that covers it, your head on my shoulder, next to my chest, your hair so close and sweet, your smile faint, and your eyes bright with all that you are barely veiled from the world.
I miss the cool warmth of your soft skin brushing mine, your lips dusting my cheek with affection, your voice small quiet and sweet, gently calling to me “come back?” when I lean away to look at you, and drown in the depth of your eyes for a moment.
The feel of your side pressed into mine, your hand gently resting on my back or chest, a small, gentle hug, and that small loving smile, all speak of life, love, and the universe to me, I sometimes doubt that you are fully aware of how much you mean to me, of how much I love you… And I know you say the same of me, so could it be, that in fact, we are both fully aware how important the other is?
I have never felt so loved, and yet, I have never hurt or longed so much before, yet it is a bitter-sweet pain, that I am thankful for, because without it, then I would have never met you, either as a personality, nor as a person, and I know that I am better for it, for not being able to escape the gentle rain falling upon my soul, the steady flow that is your soul, the small bright point of purest energy, beautiful and creative, that which is most sacred, the core of who and what you are, your spirit, your deepest heart, has reached out, and dug into the vastness of facets that I cannot help being, and even if just for a moment, you have touched the deepest parts of me, your core, has touched my own and I forever grateful, and changed…
To put it plainly, you haven’t flinched away yet, and you have started the process of convincing myself, that I am in fact worth the time and effort and emotions needed to truly know me from the outside in…
I know you certainly are worth it, my treasure, my love… Oh how worth it you are…
I wanna hold your hand, cause all you need is love.
Above all else, Love is the greatest, Love remains, and Love wins.
Endure,
~Caleb
