tick tock

It has been over six months now, since I realized I fell in love with her, almost five since we started dating, long distance, working feverishly to overcome the challenges our relationship faces, ultra conservative parents, a thousand miles and a time zone, over five years between our ages, and the damage of past relationships and far from perfect childhoods, without any clear reason other than it seems and feels right, other than it just happened, and it seems to be the answer to both of our prayers.

So how can I quantify it all?


The hurt it deadens itself, slowly, like glaciers inching to their watery doom, if love kills slowly, then let me die in a lifetime, in your arms, with your lips on my neck, your body next to mine, the cool warmth of your hands on my chest, clasping my own, your eyes lighting my soul, your voice lulling me into a serene daze, your kisses igniting my soul like an atom bomb in slow motion, your tears like the ocean filling a cup, poured over my thirsty heart...


I miss you my dear one, more than I can fully explain, I missed you before I ever really met you, and now that I have, I miss you all the more, but I am grateful for that dull cold burn, because without it, then I would not have ever been as close to you as I now wish I was, because it would not be there without my having held you close, kissed your lips, or held your hand.

I want you, I need you, all I am is yours, whatever you will do with me, do it at your leisure…


Other deep and wondrous and likely more social ponderings and rants to follow at a later date kiddos, in the interim…



Above all else, Love is the greatest, Love remains, and Love Wins.
I shall endure, if only for my own stubbornness or the grace of God above,
~Caleb Mac